30 January 2009
Been drinking since Tuesday with Vedelene at The Dolphine.
Wednesday with baby at Plush Bar.
Thursday with Jasmine at Plush Bar.
So I think I better stay home and do laundry instead.
Anyway, upload some photos at friendster. U girls may wanna take a look over there, m lazy to photoblog. Weekend's here, gonna shower and have a good rest.
Sometimes, I been to thinking when I needed you. Just where are you? Yes I expect and demand too much.
I hope I'll luv myself more
21:04
26 January 2009
Reunion dinner at bro-in-law place. Dishes all cooked by bro-in-law, thumb ups! Ved suggested to watch movie and we watched "The Wedding Game". Worth watching, next show I wanna watch is "Love Matters". Show ended 'bout 2am and lil' niece fallen asleep inside the cinema. When the daddy carried her, she cried and all the audience turned and looked at us. To be frank m mad, but she's just a lil' kiddo. N m like this too when I was at her age. But I don't cry as loud as her. Only when sis shouted at her, she woke up from her "dream". =D
Sent bro and mom back home and went off to pay my bills. When m done, crossing the road saw mom stood at the gate looking at me. Used my hands to chase her in to sleep but she just refused. Reached the void deck she shouted from third floor and asked me to go up and stay a night over at her place. So I stayed.
Had some fish porridge before sleep. Mom said not to waste food. =( Tried to finish but mom knew that m bloated. So she ate it up for me. Hahas. Couldn't sleep watched tv shows with brother. I slept at around 3.30am and he was still awake.
I could smell and guess what mom prepared for lunch inside the room where I used to sleep. I could hear the FM 933 when I walked to the kitchen and mom down there frying veggies. Went back to the room and sleep, when the mom was done with everything she came in and wake me up for lunch. Couldn't recall when was the last time that I had lunch together with mom at home.
Darren my nephew one year younger than me is getting marry soon after the wife (Pila) give birth to the daughter. So mom was asking how was I getting on with Eric. Asked him to come over for dinner some other day. She nags the usual stuffs (Your second half must be able to give in to you and tolerate your temper. And there she goes non-stop...) then she said if he's the right one, get marry soon when mom still strong to take care of the grandchildren. Alright. She reminds me too much of him again. After lunch I just went in the room to "rest" and tears just flow down the cheeks when all the memories just flashed in my mind.
After her shower, she came in with all the cookies and pineapple tarts. She asked what drink I could like to have and she brought it in for me. Munching the cookies and mom insisited that I bring some home, so I could have a few bites when surfing the net. Hahas, told mom that m not bringing back because is fattening! I've learnt my lesson. There was once a cny I munched all the cny cookies that I put on 7kgs of weights. So this year m not gonna eat much of those stuffs.
Mom said only I was there she would take out all the cookies watching the tv shows, chatting with me. Else she would be taking a nap right after her shower. Mom asked how's work at ORQ, hmm... for once I felt she cares.
One night spent over at mummy place, m already so spoilt. You know having someone to serve supper/tea-break into the room and bringing it out to wash it for me. Is like so darn good. Thank you my dearest mummy!
Alright gotta bring in the clothes and get myself prepared for K session with lil' niece Ved'
full stop
I hope I'll luv myself more
18:28
25 January 2009
Happy CNY to all.
I really hope I will stop drinking. Because...
the feeling of not able to vomit out is terrible
the feeling of feeling famished yet no appetite to eat is torturing to me.
So I hope I'll finish that bottle of martell and never go drink this frequent any more.
Was feeling so shag at work on Saturday morning. But I manage to endure for the day. Aha! Glad that officer Kim left office together with me, else I would have take a cab home. =)
My systems keep on giving me problem. Madness. N after cny, m going back to nac for the entire week. Back to ORQ for 2days and Wed m gonna be back to nac again. So sick and tiring to go here and there. Is so unfair to me but I've got no choice. And this would be the reason why Doris and Mrs Teo dote on me eh?
I don't need a long break, so I hope I would be back to work soon on Wednesday. I have make up my mind not to clear my leave by taking block leave. I'll only go on block leave end of the year. So once Melissa is back, I'll take Friday and Monday off. 'll have more rest day on March.
Look at how time flies, 2009 Jan is going to end soon.
m sorry for what I did on Friday night
I hope I'll luv myself more
10:27
22 January 2009
Meet up with sis at commonwealth to have dinner then parted and home. She gotta be home to take care of lil' Malcom. =)
As usual, that question never fails. We're good right now, thanks for your concern. Hmm... meet up soon and yepp u owe me a coffee club dinner. Aha!
Tomorrow pay day, guess 2/3 of the pay gonna be gone to credit card, bills and mom allowance. Gonna do my lashes for chinese new year, and some new tops. Heh heh... tml meeting Doreen for shopping and Ryan for drink. M not leaving early, so who's gonna join me when Ryan's left?
Another buttons top, my favourite!
I think the same design in white will goes well with this long skirt.
I hope I'll luv myself more
22:26
19 January 2009
Alright third entry of the day
Feel slight giddy when I reached branch this morning. Maybe sleep too late last night. To be frank, couldn't sleep because I was waiting for him to call. But he didn't.
This afternoon, I accidentally wet the table. Hahas. Then my colleague say, nevermind just leave it. I told him cannot, because I accidentally spilt over. Gotta wipe it dry, else aunty gotta clean up for me. He looked at me and said: "Ha, you're so honest!" =) Just remind me of that evening when we were drinking at chillz. He [Eric] said I never know how to tell lie. =) The very first time I sent breakfast up to his office. Asked Nick whats occasion was that. If I didn't remember wrongly, Eric said Valentine's Day. Aha! N I commented you will something else if it's Valentine's Day.
Is drawing nearer but m not feeling happy at all. It just remind me of the first love, how we ended on Valentine's Day 7years ago.
Mom was still thinking whether to pay uncle a visit during chinese new year or not. If not she said, gonna 've steamboat at home and asked if my boyfriend gonna be free to go up our place and 've lunch together. Hahas.
*Blush*
Don't know how to answer the mom. But I really wish he could just drop by together with my friends. Will see how again.
Gonna rest awhile and gonna shower and sew my skirt. So sweet of officer Celin. She said that my skirt torn and asked me not to bring home. Tomorrow morning she'll sew it for me. Heh heh... thank you! But I'll sew it myself. Don't pamper me so much can? Already so pampered by mom, and once pampered by loves one and friends. Even at work, at ngee ann city branch officer rosie and colleague fo mei pamper me just like lil' princess. Now m trf to one raffles quay, officer doris, kim, cindy, celin and mrs teo also pamper me. Hahas. Really happy lors. Wherever I go, all people dotes on me so much. Especially when m at ocbc, csm mr wong, cat, yixiang, jessie, yeow, poh poh, elaine, huijun and robin. M so happy working together with them, the morning greeting ocbc practice daily. Sighs...
I hope I'll luv myself more
21:04
My love look at ur tee it says never lost souls. Look again at your magnificent smile when you're with me. Hope you let go the past and continue to move on. With us to accompany you I believe you would feel much more happier and lesser worries.
When I needed someone, you never fail to be there. And I wanna let you know, likewise. If you needed someone right beside you, give me a call. What I've done for her, I'll do it for you and everyone of my friend.
Rest well and hope your sickness subsided.
Meet up soon!
I hope I'll luv myself more
20:34
Thats my love, Jasmine. Taken on 17 Jan 2009 at City Square Marrybrown.
I wish to dress like this when m out.
N here is me with my favourite bread, is just taste so nice that I can't put it aside and munch it later.
I just loves to pin up the hair and show off the fair legs, but only 2years ago. 
N like this when I slim down.
Lil' belly, be good and stop bleeding. Just wonder why it bleeds for 2dayWhen I was on my way home I just miss him. Why?
I hope I'll luv myself more
20:07
18 January 2009
Sunday and m down with fever. Gonna sleep after eating. Shit, still haven't wash up my uniform. =(
Saturday
Meet up with Jasmine to City Square after my work. Hmm.. really changed a lot, but we still manage to find our way there. Hees. Didn't buy much thing and we had our dinner at marrybrown =] my favourite! Guess she loved it too. Took some photos, gotta wait for her to send me the pix then I'll photo blog again. Enjoyed the whole trip with her, thanks babe!
Monday - Didn't sleep well at night because of what he texted and I got so helpless and cried the night away.
Tuesday - Tuesday morning when I was on my way to work looking at the smses then I realised that he tricked me. Cold - Chronic Obstructive Lung Disease. -.-" And Jasmine was feeling low so accompanied her for drink. Was waiting for her at the riverside and I bump into Eric. Waited and waited, 8.30pm she still not here. Couldn't contact her because her mobile sent for servicing. =( Called Nicole and she told me that she saw Jasmine at the control station. So I quickly walked to the control and yepp I saw her. She wanna go million but then that pub had got a very strong unpleasant sour smell so I asked if she wanna go plush, yepp... plush again. Hahas.
Lol, she pervert! One bucket not enough come another jug. Gosh, m gone soon. Yepp, I puke again lors. Such lousy drinker... I wanna martell the next time I go drink with you girls! So when the next round?
Wednesday - Was complaining that there's no air con. Requested to go lunch first, cuz need to rest. Went to pantry didn't eat but rested on the table. Was feeling so sick that I cried at one corner. Kim saw and she asked what happened. Hahas... then she went to tell Doris. Doris knew about it, but didn't release me early but asked me to drink coke. It helps to relieve the pain but after awhile the pain comes back again. Couldn't concentrate working and went in to back room and rested. Hahas. Finally survived and I wanna go home. But officers were worried 'bout me. They asked if I need them to bring me to see a doctor first. In the end Kim accompanied me to wait for a taxi. M home, Doris called just in time. She said, Kim wrote down the taxi number. She afraid that the driver drove me to some where else. Hahas, thx thx. Appreciated.
Nothing much for thursday and friday.
Alrighty, gonna rest.
Take care pps.
I hope I'll luv myself more
15:02
11 January 2009
Mom came over and I asked her to make me a cup of milo. She is the greatest mom of all! =D Mom, next time make one with full cup of hot water okies?
Was searching for ways to ORQ by bus, I found but guess m taking train instead. Much more faster. So sweet of Wati she gonna prepare sandwiches tomorrow for our lunch. Yey! Never try before. Sms her and informed her that m officially transferred there, need their patient in guiding me. Looking forward to working as a team with all the mummies! Hahas.
Sometime is a great things to work with colleague who have children aged the same as me. ORQ mummies always dote on the youngster like us. (Opps, forgotten that m already 22years old) They treat us like their own precious. That's the thing m happy about. But on the other hand, colleague with new born baby always 've the priority when leave application concerned. I guess at times when m sick and tired of working, I might go crazy if the officer gonna say no to my leave application. Because whoever took leave on that day to bring her baby for injection/ whoever kid childcare closed/ whoever kid first day of school gotta accompany the kid/ whoever... .. . Alright, I just hope I would be more understanding towards this issue.
I still have leave balance of 5.5days. Gotta clear before end of march. So if I won't be able to apply for leave on Jan and Feb then last week of march m going for block leave. I wanna travel out of town, but Kelly's postponed our HK trip. Because she's going to Jap (poly tour), so good. Envious.
M so damn fucking stressed 'bout tomorrow. And mummy came into the room to nag about this afternoon matter. Yes sis was being "kind" to inform me that the ah nei gonna wash the floor. And is not that m not gonna bring in the clothes, but can't she just give me another min? She got mad she told my bro in law about it. And bro in law went out and knocked on my windows. I showed attitude but I swear m going out to bring in my clothes already. Just let me wear my bra (Iyah, m inside my room the whole day. If needs to step out I'll sure wear my bra) Just that he's one step faster than me. Look, he brings in the clothes for me and brings it out when the ah nei left. M thankful, but next time just leave it to me. I'll do it myself. I ought to say thanks to him later.
So sis the complaint queen go and complaint to the mummy. So of course mummy came in again and NAG! Can't she tells that m already so vexed? I asked her out but she didn't. I felt like shouting at her, but I controlled. I slammed the door - Lil' niece always comes in without closing the door which I dislike very much especially when they watching tv shows and the volumn was like so damn fucking loud. Mom asked why m I like this. I've never change, m still the old me. Just that, it has been 1years 8months that I've moved out.
And I do not know what went wrong with Sis. She became mute since this morning she got up. She took my stuff without telling me. And when I was searching for needles and threads lil' niece said "Mummy u took ah yi stuff and u didn't return back". This morning I just thought that it must be my lil' niece who took it. And I nearly scolded her. Luckily I didn't. And when I asked sis if she took my stuff, she just refuse to answer me. WTF
I just asked if she's going to change that pair of shoes that I bought for lil' niece yesterday evening at ps. She say she's not changing, ps is too far away. Then you purposely drop by far east plaza to buy your fake lashes and you don't find it far? I don't give a damn if you comes your period/you're at your early stage of menopause. I didn't step on your tail and why are you like this?
Sis just wanna makes my mom disappoint in me, is obvious. Mom never see all the goods in me at all. So I've decide to move out once I found a room outside.
M so vexed, so damn fucking vexed. I feel like texting Eric but I doubt he's home yet. N m not gonna bother him about all these SHIT!
Alright, gonna take a shower and sleep.
I hope I'll luv myself more
22:36
I dislike people to disturb my sleep thats why I locked the door. But this lil' niece knocked on my door so loudly that I felt like yelling at her. Sis called but m so tired to pick up. Open the door and went out asked her whats up.
Sis: "You bought that pair of shoes for her is too small"
Me: "Then change larhs"
Sis:"You still have the receipt?"
Me: "Yah"
Sis: "But her daddy cut off the tag already, still can get it changed?"
Me: "What you think?"
My sis just piss me off so much by asking for the obvious. N that silly bro in law, shouldn't 've cut off the tag what!!! All these people just drives me crazy. ARGH!!!
Sis: "You bought that pair of shoes for her is too small"
Me: "Then change larhs"
Sis:"You still have the receipt?"
Me: "Yah"
Sis: "But her daddy cut off the tag already, still can get it changed?"
Me: "What you think?"
My sis just piss me off so much by asking for the obvious. N that silly bro in law, shouldn't 've cut off the tag what!!! All these people just drives me crazy. ARGH!!!
Sis: "Then the other pair of shoes you bought for who?"
Me: "My one, why leh?"
Sis: "Don't you think is a lil' too small?"
Me: "It'll expand after few times wear, dud!"
Please pardon me, but obviously she tried my shoes without my permission. And I simply hate that, I HATE people to touch my stuffs WITHOUT PERMISSION. Yes, m selfish. But m like this.
Look, she don't like people to wear her new piece of clothing when she din even wear it out before. So likewise. And she have never ask for permission before she borrow my tops/dresses. But I've all endured and never kick a big fuss 'bout it.
Madness. N I guess, I no need any more slippers. I need at least 2pairs of new heels. Because my ballerina looks like flat and the heatwave favourite black heels already spoilt. =( But m gonna get it only on pay day or later. Cuz I've been spending excessively this month.
Gotta save for Eric's wedding angbao. Hahas, k/d.
Was about to go back to sleep but Eric called. I think is better for me to do laundry now and pack my room.
I hope I'll luv myself more
06:40
Meet up with Jasmine at PS to have lunch together. Head home while she went back to work. Been sleeping from 4pm till 3.25am when Eric called. Didn't sleep well the past few nights, thats why.
E: "People who are nice to me, I will be double nice to them. .. .. .."
M: "Is it? Didn't know that"
E: ".. .. . I have been nice to you, but is not what you expect"
Anyway, that doesn't important any more. Kinda surprised that he asked if m feeling better. Appreciated, thats all.
Alright m going back to sleep, then wake up gotta do laundry and pack my room again. Is in a HUGE mess =(
I miss my girlfriends - KQ and Jas
Jialin, you've let go right?
I hope I'll luv myself more
05:46
10 January 2009
Thursday meet up with Jac to have dinner at LP pizza huts. Aww... was so full. After that I suggested to sing K and so we went. Didn't know that she could sing so well. Hahas =] It was ladies night so it only cost each of us 'bout 5bucks/hr. Sang till 11pm, reached home was so exhausted.
Congrat Alfred for passing his driving licence. So m gonna wait for you to drive me around Singapore! =)
Eileen Fong talked to me if I can cancel my leave application on the 12th and 23rd of Jan because ORQ needs help for 1month from 12th Jan onwards. So I told her since that's the case, she can just go ahead and reject. As long as she approves my leave on the 13th Feb will do. Late afternoon, she called me and said Mrs Teo just called her and said that I will be officially transferred to ORQ on the 12th. Gosh... I gotta learn everything all over again. =( Guess my nightmare gonna starts.
ORQ too many officers and staffs, never like that especially when conflicts between officers and us. This issue really bothers me too much that I couldn't sleep last night. Slept only this morning 5am. Eric gave some good advice last night, thanks lot!
Later gonna meet the loves one for lunch and probably head home to take a nap before doing laundry.
I met this irritating guy in e train last evenin :(
I hope I'll luv myself more
09:28
08 January 2009
Enjoyed Jasmine companion at White Bar last evening. Don't know why we just 've so much to catch up with each other. Manage to finish our drink before we miss the last train. Called him when about to leave, but he already inside train on his way home.
Nowadays I drink I no longer merlion but bad diarrhoea. So I was stucked inside the toilet for 20 over mins. Aww... feels so deadbeat right after that. Got the make up removed, face and foot washed, teeth brushed and rested on bed. Was sleeping when Eric called. Did he? I think he did because I remembered I pull out the phone to call him back
When was on my way home, texted Jasmine if I should drop him sms saying that m home. But don't wanna disturb his rest. Cuz he gotta wake up early this morning to attend a meeting. Hahas, so was kinda surprised when he was still awake around 2am+ But did expect larhs, he won't sleep unless past 2am. He sounded like he been to my blog (22years old) but m unsure. Anyway, thats not important.
I know you care, appreciated.
I hope I'll luv myself more
10:14
07 January 2009
I guess m too excited to meet up with Jasmine this evening thats why I couldn't sleep last night. I have so much that I wanna catch up with her. I thought m gonna get up earlier this morning to prepare but I got up late than usual. M always like this, still take my own sweet time to prepare when I know m gonna be late. Hahas. Took cabby to interchange then I realised that I forgotten my wallet. But m glad I still have 10bucks inside my card holder.
But*3, m still going crazy because I left my POSB debit card inside my wallet as well as my IC. So I won't be able to do any withdrawal. Especially when I don't even have IC with me. Texted my colleague ask if she thinks POSB gonna practice exceptional case this time round. Or maybe you know, I'll just get my passbook replaced since I forgotten where I placed it at. Then pay for the replacement fees lor. Hahas. But then my colleague says is impossible without IC. But she asked me not to worry, she lend it to me first. Hahas, and she wrote IOU. Damn cute. Thanks!
So tonight after drink gotta go home get my card and do a withdrawal and return her back tomorrow morning.
Hope I won't be so forgetful larhs. =(
Townhall meeting this evening. Sians =( Gonna sit together with Mrs Teo, gotta try to sneak away. Anyway, heard from Jacelyn that she's in good mood so is the right time to submit leave to her =) Guess roughly know where the place located already. Will find my ways there.
Took 12th and 23rd of this month and also 13th on Feb. Hope she approve. =]
And here's her reply:
Hi Jialin,
We are looking into all staff leave for all branches. Eileen Fong will revert to you on this at a later date.
I thought whoever apply leave first will get the off day? And Eileen Teo responsiblity is to get relief staff if the branch needs?
I replied her back that m gonna be out of town on the 12th Feb, and I doubt she'll reply me back. Anyway, m just so shitty, 6.5days are too many days for me to clear within 3months. Because I never like to stay at home doing nothing. N never like to go out during day time, because of the sunny sun.
... m the nite owl
I hope I'll luv myself more
10:46
06 January 2009
Madness! EF on leave tomorrow so the three of us thought we could escape from the Townhall meeting since boss sent an email said there are limited seats. But who knows, EF said we gotta attend. What the F. Anyway, Rosie she's a nice officer so tomorrow... heh heh.. we will disappear together by 7pm. After which gonna meet up my love, Jasmine for drink at White Bar =D
You pps know something? Don't know why, she keep on picking on me these two days till m so desperate for drink. I need to relax just like last week.
M going on leave on every Friday of this month except 30th, cuz FM gonna be on block leave. M not gonna give a tinker's cuss if they gonna say anything about it. Because is my leave day, my ENTITLEMENT!
I feel like changing job, m so rotted at work. Bank's so quiet, no msn... everyday go work so moody. Sighs.
gotta endure all e shits!
I hope I'll luv myself more
12:48
05 January 2009
Monday blues =-(
Sabina texted Fo Mei that she'd be on AM leave so m all alone since morning till down. Bored to core! Just had my lunch and m freezing inside the room. Yesterday slept only 2am+ n m feeling sleepy right now. Sighs.
Krist came over and asked what I bought for the boyfriend. That time asked him about card holder/money cliper/wallet and fragrances. So he thought I bought any of these for Eric. But I didn't larhs =) Just don't like Eric to slot his notes into his card holder. So thought of getting him the money cliper. But guess he never like.
Wth, m thinking of him.
I hope Wednesday townhall meeting doesn't involve us. M going for a drink and meeting up my love, Jasmine. Is like finally she's free to meet me, so don't ruin it pls!
N Happy Birthday to Chew Hau and lil' Bernice!
Miss out lil' Bernice birthday celebration at O Bar =(
N Happy Birthday to you. Though we didn't last long, but m happy being with you. Thanks for all the happy memories and also giving in so much when m ridiculous!
I hope I'll luv myself more
13:19
04 January 2009
Was changing my bed fitted sheet when mom came into the room quietly and obviously the timid me got frightened and showed anger. Hahas. So mom, please knock the door the next time.
Sometimes I just dislike her so much. She went to mom complained about me got drunk that night and money got stolen. F*** Mom didn't nags much 'bout that she just said not to drink too much. Think she knows that if she's going to nag m gonna walk off and never talk to her for month. Hahas.
The moment I shut my eyes to sleep, our past memories just flashed. I was traumatized, that I cried the night away. M really thankful to you, that I've grown up in this r'ship. I've learnt and understood many things and never be like what I used to be. 2009, m 22years old sensible enough to know whats right and wrong. 'd appreciate if you gonna stop pushing all the blames to me.
Didn't know that sending a birthday cake to your office makes you feel phobia.
Didn't know that dropping by finger food when I know you gotta work late will causes fear to you.
Didn't know that I got drunk disappointed you so much.
When I knew 'bout all that, I changed. Just like you, hoping that I'd be better. And I did. But you keep confusing me 'bout us.
Right now, m certain that I don't need any more status from you. Things gonna be better for both of us if we gonna stay as friends. =) N m gonna wait for your wedding invitation card. Gonna see who's the fortunate bride. Best wishes to you for ur future endeavour!
I hope I'll luv myself more
11:58
03 January 2009
Was packing my room when sis came in to disturb :( and I've got no choice but accompanied her out for shop. Sis treat me to Jia Xiang Mian and their curry noodles.. thumb ups!
She needs a pair of heels for work, so walked around and found the pair of heels she had been eyeing for. Sis so contradicted whether to get size 37/38. But come on, 38 is so obvious that it's too big for her. Size 37 fitted nicely and it'll expand after wearing a few times. I suggested her go shopping with me with the new pair of heels, but less than an hour. She bought plaster and less than another half an hour she took off and changed to her slipper. -.-" Then how is she going to wear it when she go out to meet customer?
Reached home 'bout 7 in the evening. Showered and rested till 'bout 9pm to prepare. Went drinking with my friends. First time she asked me out for drink, she emo larhs. Had a short hard time taking care of her. I saw myself in her when I drink and got emo. Finally taste that kind of feeling. Aww...
As usual brought them to Plush Bar. Yes, I saw him and he came saying hello. He had never hello to me when we met in the pub. All along, I was the one to take the initiative. When I was talking to Celestine, he came over and placed his arms around our shoulders. N talk 'bout the comfort case. So Eric said: "Come, smoke" Chit chatted outside together and soon DJ came out Eric went in. DJ apologised for that evening 'bout touching me. I joked with him, what can sorry do? Buy me a mug of beer! Hahas.
Eric came over and told Michelle, borrow (me) for awhile. Went over to his table to drink the glass of beer. He said lots of weird stuffs. He thank(ed) me for all I've done. Two persons fall in love at the wrong time. And what as a gf can do when problem occured, I already tried my best. He saw and he appreciated it. Then he said, he already told DJ that he's getting marry this year Sep. I congratulated him. A hug is all I got from him. Finished the glass of beer and I went out for a smoke.
Can't help, but texted him if he wanna come out for a smoke. And he came. Arghz! Wanna have a good chat with him but those people just interrupted. =( I got so know a couple of people yesterday. Forgotten that guy name. But I know is Chanel boyfriend larhs. The boyfriend asked Chanel to guess Eric's age. And then Eric suddenly pointed at me and said: "My dear is only 21".
Pp looks, his words are so contradicting. Thats why m so lost.
He went home, DJ and his back view looks so good. =) I think Ace saw me keep staring at them. Hahas.
He asked me to text him when home. But m not gonna disturb his sleep especially friends not going home until dawn. One of his sms said "Give you status but did you cherish?" But earlier on he said he's getting marry this year Sep. M confused. And he texted again "Don't know what you want. But tried today. Em proud to call you my dear but you don't appreciate it."
I think both of us do not know what we both want. Called him and asked if he saw my smses. And he said he was drunk and going to sleep. Oh yah, forgotten that he's drunk. That means, don't take his words too seriously.
Jialin, obviously you hate him for confusing you. Then why are you still pining hope in both of you? Jialin, Eric's too capable and you're just nothing. Aren't you letting go? You're doing good for the past few days, but why m I seeing the fragile side of you again?
Yah, should let go.
Plush closed at around 3/4am can't remember. That emo girl refuse to go home so brought them to chillz. Frxcem never change when I order one bucket with only 5 heink, and she said: "But your 've 6persons ley" F***, so what? Not all gonna drink.
So 4 glasses of martell, I glass of beer and i.5bot of heink is not shiok enuf. But p.s to drink too much when friends paid for the martell.
Reached home, showered and remembered to text him when home. So gave him a miss call using my house phone and left him a message. And what does it proof again? He won't reply.
Couldn't sleep, only get to sleep around 9am and 3pm being woke up by smses. Sighs.
Alrighty, gotta get shower and do my laundry. M glad today's only Saturday. Gotta rest well later and tomorrow.
I hope I'll luv myself more
15:19
02 January 2009
Morning pps! Am on leave today gonna have a long weekend break. =)
But m up sitting right infront of the com at 9am. Why am I doing this?
I'm just so lost and I pray that bro-in-law will choose to stay home and accompany my sis. Because I don't feel like stepping out of my room. Sis sure drag me for shopping when she wakes up. =[
I brewed herbs and I feels like passing it to him. Should I? Reader pls advice.
I hope I'll luv myself more
09:37
01 January 2009
Had lunch together with Stepfanie, Susan and Wati at Thai Express. Through out we grumble about work except for Stepf. Whatever we said, she would be just sitting down there and listen. N m sure she knows Eileen F and she remarked - I'll never want to work with her. She's nice but just way to naggy, thats all. Thanks Susan for the treat. Guess next time I won't buy them anything for any festive.
Took a shower when home, and slept all the way from 5pm till this morning 9am. Thought m gonna take a nap before heading down to friend chalet at ECP last night. But I just overslept, will do a make up for you.
Thats how I marked an end to 2008 and welcomed 2009.
Qin, was sleeping when you texted. Next time, plan ahead yah?
Thanks all for the well wishes.
Gonna do laundry and pack my room before that lil' niece comes home from lunch and starts disturbing me. Hahas.
I love this top
First time, I find the lashes not so nice.
I always love the fresh make up.
E banana top you borrowed me.
The make up I put on I thought Mitch wanna go party with me that night.
For once I loved a red top!
I wish I'd dress like this now.
I hope I'll luv myself more
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